Shaded Heart

A violet sun shines deeply
revealing a heart of grey
that trades alcohol for oxygen
and chemicals for this blue blood.

Sadness marks my every breath,
and my seared lips speak only fear.
Blackened thoughts fill my mind;
these swollen eyes shed hope.

My skin knows no lover’s touch
and no siren songs ring these ears.
A dull moon rises in an empty sky,
signaling now the final hour.

Shadows I cast in light
Veil my hope for love
But I’m blind to life
As my heart sees you

Stumbling through darkness
Not to find my vision
But to gain my love
And hold her closer still

Memories escape me
Those simple, dull seconds
And my passionate moments
Confused now with dreams

Dreaming always of you
The sick and the sweet
Always beautiful to mind
Always tourment to soul

The subtle sound of sleep awakens me
Immersed in frozen thatches of darkness
Your name glides upon the whispers of the night
And illuminates my thoughts with you

A sigh escapes quietly into the night
And rests upon the frame of your photograph
I persuade my finger across the glass
And recede at its empty texture

I see you now amidst the heavens
Blazoned across the morning sky
An angel of this golden firmament
Shining down your endless beauty

The darkness took me when I strayed
From a world which had betrayed
Now I see the truest light
From within the darkest night

As we lay here holding on so closely
I gaze up at those heavenly fires
Brilliantly burning their lives away
Clinging only to their darkness

The moon’s radiance soothes me
Warming my mind to distant thoughts
Gleaming upon the softly breaking waves
That wash the broken death ashore

The streetlights yield a steady flicker
Complimented by the sound of passing cars
The rhythmic ambiance flows with my heart
A heart that is beating only for you

Seaborne air breathes the scent of life
And we’re quick to run to warmer refuge
The clouds set themselves upon your lips
Lacing the ground with its subtle shine

I shut my eyes and soak you in completely
And I pray I’ll never wake from this dream
With you it seems everything is poetry
From my heart with a perfect love

Midnight air thickens and I struggle to breathe
Falling tears wash away the memories
And the sounding beat spells out pain
While every moment reminds me of you

My face hits my hands and I bury the thought
And I wish for a fire long since gone now
The cold is welcomed but now I’m freezing
And I yearn for a dry place to rest

Slowly the storms rise with eventual death
And the darkness eclipses your sun
So I gasp with fear and sigh a resolve
And I cry until the rain goes away

I sit in perfect obscurity
without a thing to hide,
and stare at my reflections;
to them only I confide.

Yes, I sit still waiting
for what I have not seen;
for that which I will never know;
for whom has never been.

But still I lay and listen
to the rustle of the trees;
to the howling of the midnight wind;
the churning of the seas.

I sit in perfect obscurity
with a smile upon my face
for I have found the darkness.
Forever shall it be my place.

In a world of no forgiveness
In a realm of many tears
In this sphere of sorrows
And of relentless fears

In a place of no tomorrow
You can only find today
And you live in your past
Where your life seems astray

There’s a place of loving
A perfected conceal
Where everything is peaceful
And your dreams become real

If you’d only let me love you
I’d show you the way
To my small piece of heaven
Where forever you can stay

If you’d put your past behind you
And gave to me today
Tomorrow we’ll face together
If it could only be this way

You say that you know me
But you have yet to see
You think you’ve got me figured out
But I’m forced to disagree

Confide to me your darkness
And I will give you my light
Tell me your deep regressions
And I’ll still love you tonight

Can you grasp my love for you
You must know it is real
And when you keep things from me
Pain is all I can feel

In this quiet suppression
I slowly begin to fade
Muffled by the darkness
Eventually life is paid

A tear shatters the silence
Of what you thought was real
Engulfed in my own sorrows
No longer want to feel

The morrow proves no better
I’m better left behind
Falling out of myself
To never again find

But you could have it all
The nothingness I hold
I won’t keep it from you
My life is already sold

Voices cry out with pity
They run within my ears
They could never understand
They’ll never know my tears

The darkness enshrouds me
like a warm blanket in winter
or the thought of fear among the fearful.
The darkness soothes me
like a thousand singing sirens
or a lover’s hand upon my beaten face.
The darkness conceals me
like the night hides the sun
or my deepest inner secrets held.
The darkness welcomes me
like an inn to the lost traveler
or a mother’s knowing embrace.
The darkness contains me
like the sky holds its stars,
or the man who keeps his soul.
The darkness is a place I’ve found;
a place I shall never leave.