Shaded Heart

I dreamed another dream of you
lost within this amazon night.
The leaves softly amplify the rain
and my heart beats just as fast.

In the distant shadows I see your face,
a refuge to this chaotic land.
And all my hope comes rushing forward
as you stand there on the rising mist.

Your beauty exceeds all the Earth,
and the trees sway with jealousy.
The rain clings desperately to your hair
as all the birds sing your name.

In this motionless surrender,
my heart bleeds out for you.
Your eyes burn into mine,
evoking my every drop of love.

Hesitantly, I approach your splendor.
Your smile showing your approval.
The raucous landscape draws a silence;
my mind knows only you.

I dare to touch your loving lips
and glide my hands down your shoulders.
Your scent is of the sweetest flower.
Your taste above the ripest fruit.

My mind is lost to define you
as my whole world converges to one.
I resolve to never leave this paradise,
but once again I awake alone.

Songs never sung
echo through my mind.
Days yet to come
are all I know.

I am to blame
for this love undone.
Two lives the same
will never be.

The mind is cold
and obsolete.
A heart less bold
perhaps colder still.

I’ve left untied
the sail of life;
The sun casting
now its last shadow.

A chill runs down my spine
Feelings that once were mine
Illusions I was made to see
Were burning rubble and debris

Letters I should have burned
Feelings that I never earned
Phones I should have hung away
That were soon to betray

Love that lived inside a lie
Betrayal I cannot deny
Second chance, second thought
Forgiveness that was never sought

Thoughts of you are flashing past my eyes
There’s something here I failed to realize
I’m wondering if this is still the end
But just so you know, I’d do it all again

Your hair falls into place
And my heart starts to race
The smoothness of your skin
Won’t you smile at me again?

And the nights with nothing else to do
I only know I want to be with you
My mind is numb and I can never think
When your love is on the brink

I want to put this pain aside
I want to forget about your lies
I want to hear your voice again
I want to be with you again, again

Your hands run down side
Makes me feel so alive
When you smile up at me
There’s no where I’d rather be

I’m sick of this feeling I have
A guilt and regret I didn’t earn
A hate you sowed in my heart
An anger you continued to fuel

And so I’ve let you go now
I even set you gently down
I’ve found your love in another
Someone who always makes me smile

Someone who’s there when I fall
And cares enough to say it so too
Someone who makes me feel wanted
And wants to be wanted the same

This is everything you threw away
All you had but tossed aside
This is my life I have to live
A life you chose to live without

The day gives way to darker heir
And I struggle with the thought
Violent games play inside my head
You’re there too, standing silent

I brace myself for the impact
And it has hit but I haven’t moved
Still pretending you’re there
Still wishing you weren’t gone

Awoke to the warmth of the sun
But my heart is solid ice now
Slowly cracking and breaking
And I can do nothing but watch

Now we go about our days
With those feelings ignored
And my love is replaced with hate
Don’t let this be the end

You’ll leave all the same
And I’ll cry and forget you
Then you’ll come running back
But I’ll already be gone

These screams I hear inside my head
Sometimes make me see blood red
I’ve had enough, it’s too much pain
I think I might have gone insane

I only want to run away
To be with you all night and day
But I am trapped within this life
The bitter struggle, my painful strife

Yet when the rains and storms have cleared
I’ll be that man I’ve always feared
So now I watch for far away
I’ll be with you, some day

I sit in perfect obscurity
Without a thing to hide
And stare at my reflections
To them only I confide

Yes, I sit still waiting
For what I have not seen
For that which I will never know
For whom has never been

But still I lay and listen
To the rustle of the trees
To the howling of the midnight wind
The churning of the seas

I sit in perfect obscurity
With a smile upon my face
For I have found the darkness
And fore’er it shall be my place

With extreme, comes a change
Balancing in full my derange
I know not why I am here
Or why I still live in fear

The rising up sets me free
But I’m rising to reality
What once was clear, now is haze
I am lost within an empty maze

And as I grow forever strong
I seem to kill my own soul’s song
There can be no in-between
I have met the bitter seam

What lies beyond, no one speaks
Only dreams and imagination keeps
That which I now must transcend
To begin a new, to close an end

And so now I dwindle away
From that which I always stay
And life goes on, minds forget
Alone I travel this fateful trip

My heart is crying out for you
Let be known, my love is true
I wish you wouldn’t have to cry
But you do, despite all I try

Those who hurt you in the past
Those friends of your who did not last
Who cares at all what they say
As long as you’ll be with me today

But if you need to go and weep
I’ll be your hidden, secret keep
And together we’ll cry the night
And hold each other so very tight

And if you need to run away
I’ll be your shelter and your stay
Together we can find relief
From our sorrows, and our grief

Do not fear, I’m not the same
Of those who ridicule in shame
True is my passion which I show
Forget the world, just let it go

You will always mean so much to me
And I wish one day I could set you free
But maybe for this one minute pray
We’ll live it together, with past away

Confide in me your deepest fears
And I’ll whisper in your soften ears
I love you, I know that much is true
I am one, and that one is you